expectations

As students we are, it may be common to have disappointments. We may be, at one point, being disappointed with our classmates, our friends, our love interests, or to our teachers. The latest seem not as usual, but I had it.

Disappointments are from expectations not fulfilled. Why do we expect in the first place? We expect something to somebody because we have this belief that he could be able to meet those standards. Well, normally that would be the reason. But sometimes, say one out of ten scenarios, we could have this expectations because that person is building that standards by himself.

That 1-out-of-10 scenario came to happen to me. I am not so sure if my friends also happened to have this. Well, I am talking about this instructor, who WAS one of those I thought to be the bests. When I was still a newbie in our school, his name was really something. Just hearing that name made students shiver. They tirelessly described him as ‘terror’. Thankfully, I’ve been lucky for couple of years that I haven’t been a student of his. That luck though meant an extension to my misconceptions.

Now, that luck is gone. I’m now a student of his. Though afraid, I’m excited because finally I would be able to personally try how exactly it is to be with the ‘terror’. During the first day of our class, I already felt his ‘roar’. It would be too long to elaborate it, but trust me, he really did! Second meeting, third, still isn’t a formal class, still can’t find what I do expect. During the 4th session, I started to smell something unpleasant. And with the 5th and 6th, I was able to confirm that something. ‘The terror isn’t that terror in teaching!’

You read it right. He isn’t. He wasn’t teaching us. He wasn’t doing what a teacher was supposed to do. And yeah, you guessed it right, he haven’t met my expectations. I was really expecting him to be the best teacher for he seems to find himself almost perfect. I expected him to know a lot for he is so expert in finding the faults of others. I expected him to be so brilliant for he treats us more like toys rather than students.

Sad to say, those expectations will always remain as they are, unfulfilled. I wish people would refrain from acting such things that would make others find them as someone they could impossibly be. It is hard to live in a world where people expect you to be someone you cannot be, but I guess it would be harder if those people are having those expectations because you made them do.